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resurrectionsongJuly 26, 2004Pros and Cons: I Do This for Fun?When I started blogging, it was for a very few reasons:
What I saw in the potential of blogs was the possibility of the greatest exchange of knowledge and ideas in the most egalitarian way that the world has ever seen. Maybe, someday, it will get to that point. What it is now, though, is brutal, echo-chamber shout downs, name calling, high school cliques, and an amazing lack of personal respect and dignity. Of course, there are isolated pockets that completely met my hopes, but for every person interested in listening to an opposing view there are twenty people who just want to shut down dissent in the most rude manner possible. In the last few weeks, I've been called an asshole, a dumbass, a filthy repug, arrogant, ignorant, stupid, and probably a few other things that have escaped my memory at this moment. I've been called those names for saying that I don't like the racist overtones involved in some bumperstickers, think that Sandy Berger absolutely deserves the scrutiny that he's come under, because I approve of Zel Miller, and because I don't believe Bush knocked down the World Trade Center. In any other "social" setting, I would almost never face these kinds of comments. At a party or at the bar, someone might tell me in no uncertain terms that they disagree, but it would rarely be because I was an arrogant, ignorant, filthy repuglican asshole. When I look at why I started the site, I can honestly say that I had enough interesting things to say that quite a few people have read my words over the last year and a half. I can see some measure of success in that. I can also say that I have had some incredibly stimulating conversations with people whose minds I respect--and I can honestly say that I have come to broaden my world view on some subjects. I can see some measure of success in that. But fun? I can't quite figure that out. There is something fulfilling in knowing that I've been read and responded to from around the world. I didn't change anyone's world, but I did manage to reach a few minds. There is also something addictive about writing for an audience, even if that writing isn't up to any professional standard. A year and a half later, and I'm not ready to hang it up, but I do wish I could make it more fun. Still, in my life, the personally fulfilling things were rarely the things that I would call "fun." They were usually the hard-fought accomplishments that required my time, my energy, and my commitment. If I ever get married again, it won't be because I expect it to be non-stop "fun", but because I expect it to fulfill me in ways that being single never could--and marriage involves a whole lot of effort, doesn't it? But a blog isn't a wife and never will be. A blog isn't a paycheck or a lifelong ambition or a replacement for a "real" life, either. In fact, I'm not entirely sure what a blog is to me--and that might be the problem. Those other fulfilling things in life didn't happen without my expectations, and I have no expectations of this site. I don't expect it to earn me a book deal, shower me with groupies, or gain me world wide fame. I don't expect it to make me a better person or to be the thing that I look back on when I die and say, "ResurrectionSong made it all worthwhile." As I said, I'm not ready to hang it up, but I am ready to re-think the site. I don't know exactly what that means, but I do know that if I don't find some personal satisfaction in the thing, I will give it up soon. Too much name calling and not enough fun, whatever the hell that means. Posted by zombyboy at July 26, 2004 01:36 PM | TrackBackComments
Well, if you did hang it up, things would be a lot less fun for me. It would also mean that the trolls have won. Does that help, or do I need to hit you with some more cliches? Posted by: McGehee at July 26, 2004 02:14 PMOoo, you know I love good cliches.... Posted by: zombyboy at July 26, 2004 02:16 PMI think part of the problem might be that politics has ceased to be a fun subject. It used to be wonderfully entertaining. All the disagreement just gave it juice. Now there is so much distrust and paranoia, coupled with an instant presumption of ill will on the part of those with whom we disagree. And it doesn't help, as you pointed out, that a some people are simply ill-mannered clods. Maybe you just want to leave politics alone for a while. Try something innocuous -- like religion! Posted by: Phil at July 26, 2004 02:39 PMI think it would be a lot more fun if you weren't such a filthy, repugnant, arrogant, ignorant, stupid, dumbass, asshole. Or you could just be like me, embrace it all and remember that at the end of the day, it's not how many well-written, thought-provoking and insightful comments you get, it's how many fr33 ci@lis, gr33n cardz, CASINO CASINO CASINO comments and e-mails you get. And dammit, if you get groupies out of this I'm going to be seriously pissed because all I got was a fat guy in a lawn chair in my front yard who smells vaguely of cheese, B.O. and one of those cherry air fresheners out of a 1973 Dodge Coronet that carries a sideline fragrance of Hardee's fries. He says he's some kind of "filmmaker" but I've never heard of him. Posted by: Zygote at July 26, 2004 02:48 PMYeah! Something totally non-devisive! Maybe I should just start talking about life-extending technologies... Posted by: zombyboy at July 26, 2004 02:49 PMZ, You're just lying to yourself. You know damn well that the Bushitler had those towers destroyed because he took up drinking the blood of Iraqi children when he gave up the booze and his supply was running low. Since there was no real reason to invade Iraq, being as how there were no WMD and Saddam was a peaceful sort, he had to whip the American people into a war frenzy. Not that that's hard or anything. Jeez, can't you filthy repugs be bothered to read the DU? Posted by: Deb, the Queen of All Psuedotrolls at July 26, 2004 02:51 PMBetween Deb, Zygote, and SH, I think I just found some of that fun that I'd been missing... Posted by: zombyboy at July 26, 2004 02:55 PMIn any case, I'd request that you hang on until January, at least. Why? I think blogging is going to undergo some major changes at that point. The run-up to the election is driving a great deal of the discussion right now. Iraq is a major issue, as well, and having an elected government over there and a president with a mandate of some sorts is going to quell much of the divisiveness, I'll wager. Zbabyfacemuffincakes: Election year. Election year. Election year. :) I have to agree with Nathan. I *know my blog is Craptacular, but even still I get a comment now and again that makes me anxiously await the growth of my extra-thick skin, but I'm afraid I won't ever have it. Too damned girly foo-foo sensitive for my own good, I am. There are times when it's good to push away from the blog and just ignore it. But don't go away completely. I would miss you far, far too much. Posted by: Emma at July 26, 2004 03:32 PMWell, I think I have yet to call you any names, so I guess I am one lefty who is off the hook, right? :) I miss blogging for dumb reasons. I sent nathan a photo of John Edwards with his fingers tented with a Simpson-esque caption, and he pointed out how I should've blogged something like that. BUT, I don't know if I want to go back, with everyone disagreeing with me all the time, sometimes not politely. I was fine as long as it stayed civil, but my worst offense was- get this- backing up a conservative blogger. I got so many negative hits it was just too much, the comments so over-the-top offensive. And instead of maybe just re-visiting the issue, I had ***hole readers visiting me daily just to be rotten. I never blogged daily after that, not with any substance anyway. As you know, D, I went on to do another kind of blog and it has been very rewarding. my traffic is cut in a third, but the rewards outweigh that. What I am saying is, blog what you want to blog, in a way that leaves you satisfied. I don't think you can go wrong. Your writing is fun and I enjoy being here, even when I disagree with you. So there! ;) Posted by: Jo at July 26, 2004 03:46 PMOne thing you may try is not thinking twice about banning anyone who is abusive or trollish. I don't usually do that myself, but only because most of the trolls I've had to deal with are so stupid that they provide a perverse form of entertainment, at least for a little while. Once their idiocy stops being fun for me, they're gone, and I move on to other topics. Posted by: Xrlq at July 26, 2004 03:50 PMI don't know that I've ever banned anyone for anything other than spam--and that doesn't count. Maybe I should consider it for some of the comments. Jo, I have a few favorite lefties (although, you'll always be number one in my lefty-loving heart) that both stretch me intellectually and treat me as something other than an arrogant, stupid repuglican (or something like that). Check out Steve the Modulator (see the trackback for this post) for one of the examples. The funny part is that a good portion of the mud slinging in my direction has come from people on my own side of the political fence. Of course, the worst of it is reserved for people with far different ideas than mine. And Nathan and Em, you are both far too kind. Posted by: zombyboy at July 26, 2004 04:10 PMYou've been called all those just this week. Damn ZB, I live for that. I must be losing my touch. *lol* Posted by: Trench at July 26, 2004 05:13 PMI grew up being called all kinds of hurtful names -- and that was by my friends. <rimshot> Posted by: McGehee at July 26, 2004 08:06 PMIf you're getting called all those names in a week, you must be doing something right. Besides, don't you want to keep getting that paycheck from your Zionist masters? Posted by: dorkafork at July 26, 2004 08:20 PMTry writing something controversial some time. Try 'heroin should be free for gradeschoolers' or the like. Then you'd be having fun. Posted by: Walter at July 26, 2004 10:18 PMRemember, that insults and other personal attacks are only used by those who cannot develop arguments based on facts. The fact that they have to go to those levels only show that they cannot hope to go toe-to-toe with you on ideas. You present your opinions, backed by fact. If they cannot keep up with you on that level, why the hell do you care!? Besides we at the "Society that shall not be named" are still monitoring your activities, and if you stop this blog, you will cease to be valuable. We will come and visit you, and it won't be pretty. Remember, even though the first implant didn't work, we do have more direct methods. Posted by: Shad0runr at July 26, 2004 11:08 PMDeep Thought: Try saying to yourself, "I'm rubber, you're glue. Whatever you say..." Never mind. Keep strokin', Z. Posted by: Jim at July 27, 2004 01:04 AMI recommend you turn off the comments, blog what you want, have whatever kind of 'tude makes you happy, and leave it at that. The trolls don't come around for stimulating debate, they come here because it's a place for them to burp and fart. Those of us who want to read what you've got to say will keep coming around regardless of your feedback options. Instapundit does just fine without "help". Anyways, I'd rather not lose you because of troll burnout. Posted by: Remy Logan at July 27, 2004 01:47 AMYou better not pull a Ricky Williams on us man. Seriously though, if you find yourself not having any fun when writing on any particular topic, try blogging while naked. It works for me. Posted by: Val Prieto at July 27, 2004 06:07 AMRemy: Turning off the comments defeats the whole purpose. Without comments there is no discourse. Without discourse you revert to stating an opinion, not forming one. Posted by: Jerry at July 27, 2004 07:51 AM The reletive anonimity of internet communication simply proves the aphorism that charactor is how one acts when no one is watching. Usually in a bar the person speaking is B: Not drunk or drunk, but doesn't speak in an overbearing, rude, or holier then thou way. Thusly, people aren't rude back. C: kids can't go into bars. well at least not legally. *nothing in the above is directed at you, necessarily, since I haven't read your blog long enough to get a feel for what you're about. It's a general opinion made about most people who blog. Bottom line is most people are far more opinionated and rude on their blogs then in person Posted by: Ben at July 27, 2004 11:44 AMI have attempted three or four times to respond to this post and yet I can't seem to write what I want to convey. I know what you're saying, and would terribly miss your thoughts being posted for the world to read, but, there is so much out there and it simply cannot be missed. Balance is challenging for even the most organized person. Just yesterday E and I were talking about a situation that was frustrating for her: a sensed betrayal by a friend. I had to help guide her to examining facts against feelings; said friend had actually demonstrated faithfulness repeatedly in the past and one thoughtless screw-up shouldn't dominate E's decision process. While you have been hit hard lately with the mudslinging, in long-term review, you have made people think; challenged positions based on tradition rather than thought; met some really interesting people (literally and virtually); and perhaps made some genuine friends. From what I have read (and a person conveys much more through their writing about himself/herself than I think is realized), if you quit blogging, you would have to find an outlet for discussion, and not just with those with whom you agree, but specifically those with whom you disagree. You like to be challenged and to challenge in return. You have a need to write and talk about that which you think. I for one would miss being a spectator/participant in such discussions and thoughts. I think you more gentlemanly, more civil and polite, than most and it is the lack of those characteristics and qualities in the course of commenting that irks you. You know, there are far more testimonies of allegiance on this post than I think you could've imagined. Besides, what would life be like without a few insults? ;) We love ya, Z. Posted by: Rae at July 27, 2004 11:45 AMP.S. Well said, Peter (do I know you?). Posted by: Rae at July 27, 2004 11:51 AMJerry: If the conversation isn't civil and enlightening, of what value is it? I've never enjoyed being around people screaming at each other. Besides, what discourse will there be If Z decides to hang it up. I visit many blogs because I want to hear what the blogger has to say, not the commenters. I do believe that we are at the beginning of a wholesale change in political discourse because of blogging. I think that the kinds of commenting that are getting to Z (I assume, with all that implies), are a drag on blogging's full potential. How about a compromise--(we're planning out your life your ZombyBoy. Don't you feel special) -- Z deletes the ranting/hate-filled comments and otherwise ignore the comment section. It's what I'd do in his position. I'm not a good enough writer to get across my feelings about people (both on the right and left) who go around sowing anger wherever they can because they can. It is not censorship to say, I don't want you yelling in my house. Posted by: Remy Logan at July 27, 2004 01:36 PMRemy: I agree with you that mindless ranting and raving does not make for discourse. The problem that Z is discussing here (and that he and I have spoken about at great length offline) is not a problem with everyone. There are numerous people who comment here in polite, civil, thoughtful manner. If the only comments that were made were of the hateful variety then turning off the comments would stop those comments, but it would also mean that there is no discourse. In this case, ending the blog would be the only reasonable thing to do. Fortunately, this is not the case. Turning off the comments in order to deter the few hate-mongers stifles the people that do behave appropriately, which is just as bad. The real solution, as you have mentioned in your most recent comment, has to be somewhere in between. deleting comments is one approach, but only Z can say if thet would work for him. The problem with deleting these comments is that you have to read them first. Z doesn't just want them gone, he doesn't want to have to read them at all. Posted by: Jerry at July 28, 2004 07:07 AMPost a comment
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